Beschreibung
If I shake my head really fast from side to side (I look like a man)
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My hair is now 3mm long, I don’t wear makeup anymore and I am well over a 100 kilos.
I suspect my family thinks I’m a lesbian, but I’m not. They don’t dare to ask, I don’t feel the need to explain what «queer» means. A few years ago, at my cousin’s wedding, my dad suddenly blurted out «If there’s ONE thing I would go in a protest march against, it would be PRIDE.» I told him to shut up, which surprised him enough to do just that, then I went to the bathroom and cried.
Some days I want to put on a dress and pretty shoes, maybe get my nails done and just sit at a fancy cafè, reading the papers and looking at people. You know, pretend to be normal. But most days, I am wearing old jeans and scruffy leather boots, spreading my legs on the subway, trying hard to look like I don’t care that people are staring at me.
I am on my way to the library to pick up a copy of Nietzsche’s «The Gay Science» – who needs family anyway, when you can have logic and gay friends.
Photographs taken 2023-2025, printed on smooth aluminium.
